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Name: Fatima
Birthday: 7/6/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Industrial/Heavy Metal Music. Artists include: Nine Inch Nails, Meshuggah, Arch Enemy, Rancid, Mudvayne, Mushroom head, SR-71, Rammestein, Nightwish, Evergrey, KMFDM, Skinny Puppy, Misfits, Paradise Lost...and...more...but i cant think of them and i dont care to...
Expertise: Pissing people off
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Im Xtremely Lost
Member Since:
1/31/2004
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| Completely aware that no one visits this ancient relic of my journal entries...i shall freely write about nothing.
Well, i have grown very impartial to everyone around me. So much, that i feel as if i'm dropping my friends one by one, on purpose. Tonight, i think i rubbed at least 3 out of my friendship list. It is awfully strange... it's almost as if i dont want friends. Do i hate people? Why am i willing to cut off all ties with good friends? or perhaps i instinctively know they are not good friends at all...?
It's hard to place trust in anyone here. Everyone is so...hollow. It seems like they all ....
oh..i dont know really. there's something about the aura of Okinawa that isnt pleasant (particularly on base) and it's quite a depressing feeling. The people here are just... well, i wouldnt act this way without reason. i dont wake up everyday thinking "you know, i dont think i like ___ today...so im just going to dump them all together!" that would be cruel and insensitive (although i suppose i can be both sometimes)
im sure everyone has felt this before...about the base. something about the people here just doesnt seem normal, and i cannot place my finger on what seems to be the common factor among the people i selectively choose to divorce any emotions with. i know of a few people who has felt the same way, but they too couldnt fit the right words that explains this mystery.
"who's john galt, anyhow?" (if you read ayn rand, you'd understand the quote. if not..then sparknote the quote) | | |
| So wow, my xanga got pretty dusty over time. Well, i signed up for some spiffy classes next year ^_^ here's my schedule (this is a diary after all, so i am allowed to fill it with stupid little things that only i would be interested in!)
AP Literature
Math Analysis
Japanese I
Computer Animations (aka: 3D Animation)
1/2 Government / 1/2 C++ (programming)
1/2 Model United Nations (debate class) / 1/2 Sculpture
1/2 Career Practicum / 1/2 Photography
Woot...must keep myself busy since all my friends are graduating this year! ahhh! | | |
| MERRY XMAS EVERYONE (in the states) haha
nothing much to update..i got an MP3 player for xmas ^_^ and 200 dollars *muahahah* i felt bad because i was invited to a party *jasons* last week and i didnt go; so i gave him candy...hehe..but i wrapped it in a tampon box xD hahahah i love my gag gifts!
man..i tried reading Bell Jar last night; i got so depressed. i swear; she came up with 3 different ways to commit suicide in 2 chapters. ahh! not something you want to read during the holidays lol. | | |
| Uhh..update..???
-Going to karaoke tonight *maybe*
-Belly dancing classes ...if i figger out where they are >_>;; xD YAY! I WANTS TO BELLY DANCES *attempts* ^_^
-umm..o.o; that's it xD
Oh yes..another day of Fatima's Loser Life xD | | |
| Hello all..
Only two days of school this week *yay*...so i shouldnt be complaining too much over the next week or so. Umm...hung out with kitty all wekend..that was fun lol.
hmm..gomen i havent anything to say nowadays..i usually vent things out before i go onto xanga oO;....
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